So i was in new brunswick for the past week and a bit with my dad and the dogs opening the place up and i get home and suddenly realize i didn’t take any pictures like i’d planned. oh well, farm’s not going anywhere, pretty sure it has to stay put in the miramichi.

I love going to the farm. Everything’s simpler there. the food isn’t fancy, things like fresh fish from the harbour, lobster bought off the boat, wild fiddle heads that my friend picked, wild berries and home made ice cream with cream from the cows next door. but they’re so fresh and so good you just can’t beat it. I spent my days helping dad with the renovations. we got almost all the new windows in and started the wall fram for the new room downstairs, cleaned up after the winter and when i wasnt helping dad i was up the road working on the young horses for boyd. I’m his favourite crash test dumby! lol 

in the evenings i’d sit out on the porch or in the sun room with a book and a cup of tea, eating some stewed rhubarb from our patch in the back. If not home i’m at a relative’s or at the local pub with kelsey and her friends having a couple beers, playing pool, just relaxing. 

After visits like that i’m never surprised when my thoughts stray to one day living there.

It’s amazing what a late night bike ride through the rain can do. I got off work around 11pm last night and walk out the door and it’s down pouring outside, like a real intense heavy rain fall with thunder and lightening lighting up the whole sky. I’ve always been partial to that weather. My adrenaline start pumping, I get really excited and I just have to be out in it. I’m getting soaked through, my hair plastered to my face, i’m going through all the big puddles just laughing and weaving through the puddles just loving it. The few people I pass are all bundled in raincoats and boots with umbrellas seemingly miserable and I just don’t get it. Rain just washes everything away (cliche I know but deal with it) and everything just smells better, cleaner. Took me twice as long as normal to get home cause I just wanted to savour it and when i finally got home, literally dripping wet, I went upstairs, got Lily and went back outside with her (she likes rain and puddles too) and we just ran through the puddles in the back lane way for almost an hour. I forgot that I don’t know where my life is going, that I’m alone, that I still live at my parents and probably will for a while longer. I was just euphoric in the rain. It was just what I needed. By the end I was soaked, my puppy was soaked but at least for a time, I was happy. Something I haven’t been in months. It was such a relief.  

on friday I found out that an amazing person who i had the joy to call a friend was killed in a train accident. Paul was such a bright and wonderful person. He was a true tanamakooner. He started at the camp as a camper in grade 8 during one of the spring sessions and waited for the day when he could come back as a staff member to share his experience with the next generation. Following that first year when he was on outdoor ed with me, that just wasn’t enough and he came back for the whole summer as a tripper. He was always so full of like and light. Always quick to smile and lend a hand. He was killed march 21st but I didnt find out till the next day and when i did, though i tried to, i couldn’t work. It was too great a shock that someone as amazing as paul was just gone, in a flash. He left behind so many people who love him and will never forget the light he brought to our lives. The tanama family has been rocked to our core but we’ll always be there for eachother to support through this. My thoughts especially turn to paul’s family and his tanamafamily, particularly peacock, jenn and KK. 

We’ll never forget you paul, see you later

nothing better then being back in the saddle

it’s amazing how small a human can get

so v-day’s coming up. Chapter’s is full of fluffy heart shaped pink and red stuff every where. We have a promo going called reveal the love where if you get a greeting card you get at least 10% off your entire purchase and potentially your whole purchase. 

It’s funny really cause not much of it’s being sold. turns out people hate vday lol when i was little i loved it, i made hand made cards for all my friends and class mates, made a fancy little box for my desk to receive valentines, buy chocolates for friends, even learned how to make oragami roses to add an extra flair for the fancy. i thought it was beautiful to tell the people in your life you cared about them. lol funny joke right? HA! it’s a holiday for stores and for people  to get brownie points and half the time doesnt mean anything, or so i’ve come to observe. 

though i’, sorry, i shouldnt be so cynical about this. means lots to lots of people who are all lovey dovey and stuff so we’ll let them have their stuff. i’m happy for em really, it’s really great. just never been really great in return.

Happy valentines day everyone. hope it brings you love and happiness

So tonight I was working cash and I noticed some of my co-workers getting all excited and it took me a while to find out that Miley cyrus and liam hemsworth were here in ottawa, in our chapters, buying a whole lot of books. Turns out some of my co-workers are big fans and have to really restrain themselves lol the only reason we even knew she was in the store was cause she needed to ask for help. the rest of the time she had her hat low and her scarf tie all the way above her nose lol the following picture is bittany and mouhnier with miley and liam. miley was not really impressed haha maybe i should sell these to the tabloids and make lots of money :P but not really cause i have the tabloids. they’re just mean

starting to question why I like them so much